Conneko and some thoughts

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VANIRA-Cosplay: (german) [ Conneko pictures & Yami no Matsuei Cosplay pix ]

Well.. survided a terrible organised.. no a not organised convention but it was okay.. I met a lot of very
nice and cute people ^.^

I've also seen the probably highest concentration of bad cosplayers EVER!

But I won't tell more of it, the people I mean won't recognize it and well I don't have the urge to rant about bad cosplay. It was just bad. But there were also a lot of very good and nice cosplays.. There was a Super Mario cosplayer wich was just great. ^-^ He was so in character.. really, he even talked to his friends and off-stage like Mario... with this italian accent ..i was quite impressed.. ^^

But... it was fun.. we cosplayed Rikkai Dai again and sunday Death Note. And I noticed, I really really do like L ^^;; Sweets and Coffee...^.^

Otherwise I'm feeling kinda depressed.. not really but there's a hint of depression... I feel useless and I didn't manage to draw a picture I'm satisfied with. Also I am not able to catch up with university which makes me feel really stupid. I have no money and can't get a job, even if I want to I still have to abandon university to work and I don't want to do that ><;;

But I also don't have energy to do any of my goals and projects.. ><;;; all I want to do is.. nothing.. o.ô and I really hate myself for that. *shrugs* can't be helped. I also feel very stupid for believing I'm good enough... I hate cons for seeing so much good people..ACK I think I'm going to throw myself out of the window.. mhm no.. that would be a mess. Okay, pills then? o.ô

My parents are coming for a visit tomorrow and well.. free japanese food.. yay ^^ that'S the only highlight so far ^__^